Its been over a year now. EMDR is kind of a skill to me. I have to get warmed up at the start of each session. Sometimes the session will be dramatic and sometimes I know my body and mind are working and to stay out.
I can feel the streams of bad energy flow out of me and usually leaves me with some answers. My latest target is my sister holding a knife to my mother's throught. This happened while I was in early grade school. The main message was there was nobody safe in my life at the time. i did call the police but they did little back then. It's all about powerlessness and being helpless.
There was alot of energy stored in my throught area that came out. the part of us that needs to speak. It felt like I was beeing choked. the therapist ask where the energy wanted to go. I opened my mouth and was breathing out bad vibes. At another point in the session it felt like it was coming out of my left eye. This session was more physical than mental.
I can feel when its time to end the session so I am not left in a bad place for the week. I started to wind down. I felt a tingling coming up from my groin and pulled the headphones off and stopped there.
